Shoot me now.....heehee, not literally

Have you ever felt like you're sick even though physiology wise you are not? Well that's how I feel. Like I don't have the flu or even a cold, but that's kinda how it feels. I think it's just like a true state of exhustion. This is a depressing blog I think, but it's my life so you get to read it. Wow, I just think that the nursing program is crazy, I have never been pushed so hard in my entire life, I wonder if it is even possible to get everything done that I need to get done. I try not to get stressed out because I try to take eveything in stride ya know, but when everything comes at you at once and you have to plan out everything by the minute it gets to crazy! It's hard to get through when you know you don't get a break until Christmas break which is like four weeks away or something. Whew. Deep breath. I am so excited for that though, this semester is going pretty fast I must say. I still kinda feel like I don't know anything but I think I'm doing ok overall with classes. I just scheduled for next semester and I won't have any Tuesday classes, fun huh. Although I forsee that day being a sleep in till noon kinda day. heehee. I also am trying to get into a class where we watch a bunch of movies about people with physical and psyciatric problems like Forrest Gump and stuff like that and write about them, it looks the most fun outta the choices I have anyway. Clinical this week was pretty good. I worked with a man this time and he was really sweet and kinda goofy, so it was fun. He didn't need a whole lot of things done, but the day went fast somehow anyway. That night we got back at about 10:00pm and I stayed up till 5 am studying for the patho. test the day!!!! It worked out though. God gave me energy to stay up thankfully. I think I did good on it, but I am paying for the sleep deprivation. Someday it'll be worth it I think and I'll be able to sleep normally. Last night was weird cuz Heather was home for the night to see her brother 's band concert (GO CMP!) so I was all alone in my room, it's weird and also bad cuz then I just watch tv and stay up way unnecessarily late...did I spell that right? But last night was also nice cuz it was just me and Kels for a while and we don't get to talk much anymore, so she came with me and got groceries and then actually paid for them because I realized I had no checks, thanks Kels, how nice of you to buy them for me, expecting nothing in return, just kiddin'.....Then we went to Culver's and it was yummy cuz they had broccoli cheese, which is a fav. even though it need more broccoli in it. Then Casey came back from hanging out with the little girl she is in a prgram with called big/little sister. You can tell the little girl loves being with Casey! I know this is getting long, so I'm sure Brita's getting all mad...hehehhee jk. But too bad, I hardly ever write, so when I do it gets long. Plus, I know that I will not be able to concentrate on reading my text book for my next class so I'm just gonna have to go unprepared and I'm at work, so there's nothing else to do but play on the computer. Lately at work people have actaully been asking for help, so for the first time I actually feel like I'm doing my job as a tutor, and I've been able to help people so that's fun. No one is ever here right now usually, so I got the place to myself. Tonight I am starting my wonderful paper about probably some ICU unit and then I am putting jammies on and watching ER, and it's a new one! Then I am being lazy all night before my long weekend of paper researching/writing in some crazy A-somthing or other format I've never heard of...what happened to MLA? I know that one! Jeesh. I should buy icecream...phish food, yummy. I shoudln't, but I probably will. I wanna say HI to my cuzzin Megan cuz I miss her and I hope you're doing ok and I love ya! Also, Jamey, if you read this, your website is very cool....oh my cuzzin Jamey made his first webpage 100% by himself for the target webpage, how cool is that? And "hi" to everyone else who reads my blogs. I hope I see ya all soon. I'll be home for thanksgiving if I make it until then...................
.......long pause......okkkkkkk bye!